A year has passed, and I have no substantive improvement.
I continue on the HRT. My hormone counts are rising, although I still have very weak sex drive. I almost never generate erections, and arousal is almost non-existant.
My career has really taken a turn for the worse. I now work in a different city from my wife. I live in Florida, and my wife and kids are back in Texas. This gives my little or not opportunity to work on my relationship problems. However, I don't have to face an angry, disillusioned wife every night.
I just had another milestone birthday recently. I realize I am not getting any younger - and my situation is not getting any better. I see little or no opportunity for improvement, in the near term.
The very best I can hope for, is to somehow keep my marriage in one piece. I keep hoping for some sort of a breakthrough - but hope never turns into reality.
Am I really wasting my time at this point? At what point is it simply more practical just to give up?
Go back and read my earlier posts to you.
Apart from the HRT how are things going with YOU, not the "marriage", but YOU?
Are you exercising, eating healthily, reading mind-broadening books, learning about the world you are privileged to live in?
Are you doing the things in life that you will regret NOT doing when you're on your deathbed? If not start doing them. No-one, man or woman, is going to get you started in those things. It all starts within. What do you want to do.
"The very best I can hope for, is to somehow keep my marriage in one piece."
Why exactly are you so desperate to keep this marriage in one piece? What does it give you that you don't already have, that you couldn't get from another woman. Clinging onto a relationship will literally just drag you and it down.
Be honest, did you stick to the NMMNG breaking free exercises? Or did you stop or backslide.
Be honest, what is it about your wife that you are attracted to? And vice versa?
S&A
"A man can be destroyed but not defeated" - from The Old Man and the Sea, by Ernest Hemingway.
Which I take to mean that every man has within him a spirit of relentlessness and optimism. Its already there; he just has to cultivate it.
