I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

Thank you for your reply Ozymandias. At this point I would quit school completely for her, work a normal job, and start a family with her no prob. I am taking a lite term this term in order to get a part-time job and go to IC.

I have lost my passion for school. In fact, it almost makes me sick going there because I know when I leave I can't go home to be with her. I wanted to go to this school and have a career that would help make a better future for "us." Without her it seems pointless almost and our marriage is worth so much more than going to school/new career.

I feel guilty for neglecting her and driving her to find someone else - like I have failed her and us because of my own ignorance.

I agree I need to stop chasing her and I have tried. My fear is that NC = more neglect? I will read Divorce Remedy for sure.

We are supposed to meet for coffee tomorrow. She wants to give me my mail and she says we have alot to talk about. I'm hoping that doesn't include handing me the divorce papers.