Thanks for your encouragement and thoughts LFA, Deep and Flowmom. I find the support here so valuable, there are not even words. We give so much to each other... total strangers to each other, yet sharing something so intense, so difficult, so life changing... so we bond in a way I didn't know would be possible.
Had another IC session today. She is so good. She gave me an extra half hour today, without billing for it, because she could see I needed it.
I might post more later on that... still processing...
Deep, your thoughts I am also processing... some similarites to what I discussed with IC so that is helpful.
There is this wierd, unfamiliar, yet so necessary balance to be struck right now... between the ME I found in the midst of my blackest days and the new intimacy and raw emotional bond in my newly forming M. I can't find my way through it yet, but feel like it is starting to make a little more sense every day.
