Can I save my marriage?

[Lll54]

Ha Ha! I'll need it. I kind of already did. Last week we got one of those " YOU HAVE JUST WON A TRIP TO ...." I should have just hung up because we are definitely not in the place to be taking a trip or even setting such a permanent plan in the future. But I listened and ended up buying it. So now we have 18 months to travel to an all inclusive resort in Cancun. H okayed it...I called him on cell while on the phone with this guy and he approved it so I can't be too hard on myself. Just don't want him to get scared about it. I feel like right before he left we were in final stages of developing house plans to build a new house. And it scared him, maybe he wasn't ready, but I pushed for it so much till he agreed. I'd hate for this to be the case. Although I didn't push this time. But still its the commitment. But at the same time maybe I deserve a little commitment too. ???