S is still sleeping! It is nice to be in my bed and not have to worry about waking him, but I kind of miss him. He is my little man and dealing with him tonight has brought up more for H and I to talk about before he comes home. All dealing with S. We will need to sit down and talk to S about what is happening, and H needs to be ready for S to get upset with him. S is used to having me all to himself so he may think daddy is "taking his place" when really H is coming back to where he belongs, but S doesn't remember H living here. He only remembers us. H will need to spend some time with S alone, but also be prepared for me to spend time with S alone as well, but the time for the two of them is critical so that S doesn't feel threatened. S has been had a rough time with all of this and H coming home has to be ok with him too. I know he is only two but he understands so much and is very perseptive. There were a few more things along those lines, but I forget now. I will need to either post here to help me remember or write them down.

Right now, I am scared H is going to go dark for a while. I did send him a text that said how I put S to bed in his bed, good night, and I would love to know what he is thinking and I am here to listen if he wants, but nothing in return. I am sure it is hard for him to get kicked out, but he needs this or he would never make a decision. I am ok either way, but if he goes dark, it will put a huge back step on our R.

Who knows? A lot going through my mind tonight, but I need to relax in case we don't have a two hour delay tomorrow.


Me29 S3
H left 4/1/09
I file 8/2/10
Divorce final 5/17/11
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