My Story...possible "grass is greener" scenario?

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nsw, I kinda stopped posting here (as in other threads) when I saw the vets chime in and give better advice than I could. Also, to be frank, it was agonising watching you slap both yourself and posters with the well-intended advice given.

Stop crossing your fingers and uncross your MIND. You've been making excuses for yourself in real life and now even here. You've already prepared a backdoor, essentially what you said a few posts back is ... "Gee, Sandi, Puppy, Gardener, whoever ... thanks for the great advice, but basically I find it too much of a hassle to listen and act on it, so please go on advising if you feel like it and if you don't, I won't blame you but will continue to mope here".

Get off yourself, your self-flagellation / ego trip, and your behind.

I think I can understand a morsel of what your ex must be feeling. You're presenting yourself as a most unattractive person to have any contact or communication with. And I'm actually in your corner to start with.