Call the police and get a restraining order against both of them. You have to fear for your safety.
...and then get a lawyer. At the very least get a separation agreement into place if you're not willing to file for D.
Go get that piece of paper where you wrote down all the amazing things about yourself and read it over and over.
Why would you believe the words of a man who left his W to have an affair and his children left homeless? Why are his words about you more credible and valuable than what you know to be true about yourself? Why are you willing to accept anything he dishes out?
It's time to Do Something Different. It's time to step up and say Enough! YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT, AND I DON'T CARE WHAT HORRIBLE THINGS YOU THINK YOU MAY HAVE DONE IN YOUR LIFE, YOU ARE WORTH FAR, FAR, FAR MORE THAN THIS!
It's time to reclaim your life and your identity. Your H is a piece of sh!t, not even, because even sh!t has some value in fertilizing things.
Brave people aren't free of fear; they're people who feel the fear and do it anyway. Be brave. Put on your asskicking boots.
And stop reading his texts. Just save them for your lawyer.
SD
Me: 40 H: 43 H had EA from 2/06-9/06 Bomb 5/06 Piecing since 9/2006 3/2008: Boundary setting 7/2009: Boundary crossing~dropped my own bomb. 8/2010: Marriage finally on track!
