Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Hey Bunny,Ant nikblondiew and others that have stopped by.

Thanks for your thoughts, and keeping me on your mind given you all have your own sitch's.

I have been struggling to sleep, and waking up the last few mornings really early, and having night sweats again. Not a good place to be. I know this will pass, but it's taking longer than I would hope.

It is tough to keep focus off stbxw, but I am trying with all I can. It seems like she is 'winning' with whatever that means right now. Financially, and now personally she has a new love. I know I can not focus on this though, so just pushing it aside to refocus on me, d9, and what we need.

Been trying to stay as upbeat and busy as possible, but I also need to push forward, so I called my L today, to try and get him to make some progress on an agreement, but no call back yet. That is frustrating as well, but nothing I can do about it.

I am not feeling comfortable with my L, so I am going to a consultation with another one, just to get second opinion. If they say, your L is doing the best he can for you, then so be it, I'll feel better that I at least am trying.

I am also investigating trying a new IC, and will talk with my current IC about going there for a while. This new one is familiar with 'Nice Guys' and I feel like I am stuck right now, and looking for some changes to get 'unstuck'

I know I have made good progress, and don't want to discount that, I just want to take some next positive steps in my life.

Boy am I tired...