Is there hope?

[Gnosis]

Drive-by comments....

Not sure I am able to keep any love alive for W at this point.

Is that really necessary? You're busy working on you. When you're done with you THEN you can worry or think about the rest. Selfish I know... but it works.

Curious if my not wanting to speak w/ her about my Uncle was the right thing to do.

Yes. Because deep down inside you know the real reason behind this... you wanted her to comfort you, support you and hold your hand.

In a way I feel it is pointless to emotionally share anything w/ someone whom I can not even consider a friend at this point.

I see your LBS fog lifting.

Why would she be here for me now, and not ever again?

Your question answers your own questions. She's not and maybe she won't be. You can't live your life like that.

I would like to hear from Cutter, Puppy, and others on how to save some type of love for WAW- when there is absolutely nothing to love about her right now.

There is no way of "saving" it because it has already been saved and stored in your memory banks. When you need it, it will come back. Until then you move forward.

I know I am not detached b/c I am experiencing anger and hostility- I know I will be OK when I feel indifference.

I'm glad to see that you are becoming self-aware. Maynard I've seen you helping out on other people's threads and can see your growth. Good job. Stay away from the hostility, as for anger... it comes and goes. How you channel that anger is what makes the difference. Use it constructively to better yourself.