Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

MHL,

Thanks for the post upstairs. Hope you have a great time with the kids tonight. If you are like me, all I have to do is look at them and I draw strength to soldier on each day.

No problem. The return of the children is always a pick me up and the greeting I get from them is great, and yes they provide tremendous motivation to soldier on.

For all of us with children in the terrible place we find ourselves in, I can't help but think that we all share the common desire for our children to grow up in a home with a Mother and Father

I certainly share this desire and it is one of the reasons I find my W behavior so shocking and selfish. I'm sure you are in the same boat with me on this one. How they can justify and rationalize what they have done and continue to do is something I am unable to wrap my mind around.

It also seems to me that we attempt to rationalize away the behavior by labeling it this or that and in both of our case as well as many others the reason is MLC. Are we to excuse their behavior because they are in a MLC? Do they get a hall pass for this?

The reality is regardless of whether or not our W are in a MLC or not they know full well what they are doing and they have to know it is wrong. I'm not convinced otherwise. My W clearly stated to me that when she was out of work she had time to think and realized that D was the correct decision. Of course she was in a EA and possibly a PA during that time. Is the fog of the A and MLC so dense that it blots out reality in it's entirety?

My W is going to have to have one hell of an epiphany at this point to gain my forgiveness MLC or not.

What are your thoughts?

I've been pissed the last few days and it's coming out in my posts. Not feeling very forgiving of late.