Tom...I too am feeling all of those feelings too. There are days you wonder who you will make it through and you can't imagine not feeling like this. But I'm hanging (tightly) on to hope and I'm choosing to believe that it won't always hurt this bad, it won't always be this way. There will be peace and happiness for all of us. I'm sorry you are nearing the legal part...I too am going to visit with a lawyer.
