Back here, for the second time... #69

[mishka422]

A strike? Good heavens! how does anything in Europe ever get accomplished? It seems like one country or another is constantly having a strike. That does it, I'm moving!

Sorry, couldn't resist a little levity this morning with my coffee.

Seriously K, you have the (banned p word) of a saint. I would have had his a$$ served by now. I understand he is depressed, he sounds like a completely lost soul and needs help and support but he is sucking the life out of you because he refuses to see that he needs serious help for himself. He feeds off of your energy and lives in orbit around you. If you were not in the picture at all he would have hit the bottom and who knows where that might have led. It's really hard to read how horribly his actions (or lack of action) is effecting your stability.

Maria, you know how much I love and care about you. I would love to see your H come out of this depression and work his way back to being a truly loving man, but without IC and, IMO, meds, he is going to remain in this deep hole. It depletes your energy and is difficult on your children. Do they ever express themselves to him? In front of him? Does he have a clue how badly they are hurting because of his inability to be a loving man to you? Children feel the love between their parents and that gives them security. Without being secure in their parents love and support to each other, they can not be secure in their own lives. Just being present in their lives is not showing them love or support, he may as well be a paid sitter.

Has he shown any further interest at all in seeing the IC?

I have nothing but respect for you Maria. You are in an unenviable situation that is slowly killing your spirit. Feed your soul Maria. Make your jewelry, paint, take your kids to your uncle's for the long weekend and let get some space and perspective.

Love you girl!!!!!