Moving on with my life!

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It does seem never ending. I was thinking about all of the intimidating texts that he sends if I don't answer him within seconds. How do I feel when he does those and he is clearly getting mad? I feel super anxious inside. I actually have this picture of us in court and a judge telling me I have to hand my precious baby over to this man for unsupervised visits as he is deemed ok. That terrifies me. I feel like if I give him just enough then maybe he won't push. Please don't bash me for being weak...I am just being honest about my fears. I am explaining what I go through when he does this and how much it takes me to stand up to him. So, I thought if I gave him an option for the class today it would pacify him. I have never really stood up to this man...ever. He has called all of the dysfunctional shots, done horrible things, knowing eventually I will be past it.

So, I am actually going to a movie tomorrow night with my girlfriend! I have no idea what we are seeing, I really don't care. Just happy to be out a bit. D18 is going to watch baby for me.