Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Thanks guys. I think that she's pursuing. I know that I am having a really hard time with resentment. I'm not sure what to do about it.

W has made points to call me and text me more lately. Last night she sent me texts during the Superbowl, then...get this...sent me a message later that night that she was laying in bed fantasizing about a particular sexual time we had together. She called me and texted me today, and out of the blue called tonight and asked if I wanted company. I said fine and she came here and hung out for over an hour.

I was friendly, but not overly receptive. I didn't really want her to be here to be honest. I can't stop thinking about the things that she has said and done. That's where the resentment is coming from. This has gone on for so long. She has been so brazenly hurtful, disrespectful to me as a man. Insulting. She continues to remain friends with people that are just bad news for our marriage.

I can't even sleep because I am replaying things that were said and done over and over in my head. I don't even know this person anymore. We're still playing stupid games. Not talking about what's going on, or where this is headed. I really want to just be done with it all. In the long run though, it may be better to work through it.

She is clearly trying, I just don't know that I want to anymore.