Thanks Jstr and Number 8. I know all the wondering is useless and a waste of energy (as one friend put it), but it occupies my mind all the time. I just woke up from adream where wer were happy together and holding hands and laughing. I hate that! Do you all also have dreams where everything is all right and back to normal and then you wake up and reality is so different? I have been dreaming about him lately and I just want it to stop.
I know H is partying and off on holiday weekends, out every night with friends and going to plush resorts. He did it while I was with him after the bomb and he must be doing it even more now that I am not in the picture. He is trying to escape from something and his friends of course encourage him to do this.... I have had no apology and I am not expecting any. Anything that he ever says will be too little too late, and will be of no consequence.
