Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

ok so I tried my new technique.....don't speak unless spoken to and it was soooo hard! You see, WH texted me to let ne know he was going to come over early to "give me some relief." So I said "thanks, that would be great!" via text.

When he arrived, I was still in pj's but oh well...taking care of S wore me out! The house was clean, though.

I failed a couple of times but then stuck to not initiating.I worked out, got ready and left.

Now I admit that I almost caved on the dinner....I saw frozen spaghettiu sauce, garlic spread, hhoagie rolls, mozzarella cheese, hamburger and thought "meatball subs!" I even went so far as to take he ingredients out.

But then I thought of Mindfull, and how she has stuck to her guns, and I thought of some other theads where the people haven't and the posters replied with "well we can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped" and I thought of myself...I would be disappointed in ME! So I put the ingredients back!

So I never mentioned dinner and WH never brought it up! He did till try to talk to me though, which surprised me! (gee I DON'T have to be responsible for conversation?"

And at the last minute, I decided to "skip" my class beause I was tired and a friend of mine wanted to talk on the phone! So I went to a coffee shop and sat at a table far away and pretended to read the paper while talking on the phone!

I even arrived home a tad later than last Monday!My DB coach advised it's good to not be so routine driven, aka, be unpredictable (also recommended by A of S!)

When I walked in, S was wide awke, the TV was blaring and both WH and S were in good spirits! WH summarized the night and added that he looked up RSV(S' virus) last night online and told me a bunch about it. He also shared what he watched on TV.

So as soon as he left (assuring me he'd check in tomorrow a.m. and hoped S would eat more), S fell asleep instantly, LOL!
I think he was hyper from feeling better+being tired!

I am proud of myself for sticking to not cooking AND not initiating conversation!!!Thank you all for helping--"peer pressure" actually helped give me the motivation to go through with it!

One day down, tomorrow is another day! (ala Daybyday!)