I wonder the same things about my H, though I don't know your exact situation. We separated on 1/1/10 (his choice), and he's been staying with his mother and stepfather. He's been out to plenty of lunches, dinners, and movies with different guy friends. I believe he's even seeing a play this week. Ugh! I try to do the no contact thing, too, but it feels like it's killing me sometimes. I wonder if I ever even cross his mind, and it seems like you wonder the same thing about your situation. In my overactive imagination, I imagine him smiling and laughing somewhere, without a care in the world. I also can't help but think about how he's managed to become exempt from adult and household responsibilities by staying at his mother's house. I know this may be of no help to you, but I completely understand the feelings you've described. You're doing the right thing by sharing your feelings here. Hang in there, and I'll try to do the same.