Thanks Jstar. The 180's are diddicult emotionally. I wake up most mornings after dreaming that we are together again andhappy, and it really ruins my day as the regrets and dream linger on.. I am unable to shake them off.
I have been writing and planning what I want to do and how I want to achieve it.
I of course have to confront him in order to move on, one way or another.
I doubt he will ever come out and explain anything. I have never got a single apology from him, no mention or sign that he cared about the loss.
I just want to stop this hurting and start a new life, with or without him. He also blames me for all that happended, when it is he who dropped the bomb and had an affair. How incredibly selfish is that?
