Trying to move on

[ClingingToHope]

So W calls today. She gives me the dates she is taking for vacation, which I requested, then she tells me she is asking for Aug. 9-13 off, but she's not taking the girls that week.

She tells me she's going to Sturgis, S.D., with her best friend. That's the site of a major motorcycle rally. So I ask her if that's where she's going.

She said she's not riding a motorcycle down there, she's riding with her best friend.

I didn't say more than a word for the rest of the conversation. She knows I know about her small-town friend. I honestly don't think it's an PA. I still think this is just her having a gang of friends outside of my circle to hang out with.

Still, for some reason I am really, really angry. She hasn't filed any D papers and now she has plans to go to South Dakota with a bunch of biker buddies.

I'd like to at least be divorced before she goes. I really, really, really want to call her on it. Tell her she should at least have the decency to divorce me before hanging out with a bunch of 50 something drunken bikers.

Then part of me says play it cool. Don't show anything. Let her run her life into the ground. She's broke now. In nine months who knows where she'll be.

Today -- right now -- in this moment -- I hate her.