I got a Compaq. Best Buy had a great price, 329. I also got a copy of Microsoft Office and a virus program, grand total 518 for all. I thought it was a fantastic deal.
I fully credit my faith in God for where I am now. I knew no matter what, I would be okay. It was really hard going through all of it, and there are times when I still go through it. As we speak, I am crying a little. I miss my brother, I miss my husband, I miss what the "dream" was. But I also have faith that there is a reason for all of this. I am not necessarily sure what it is. But I have learned an awful lot. And for that, I wouldn't trade the experience.
OF course, I do wish it had been a little less painful
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Glad things are going so well for you! You have worked your butt off, so definitely enjoy it.
Hope the computer works good for you. Compaqs do tend to be cheap, the problem is you sometimes get what you pay for. On the list of best and worst laptops, Toshiba has been at the top a few years now, and Compaq has been at the bottom. Of course, if you only use it for internet and e-mail, I'm sure it'll be just fine.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
Yeah I know, but that was basically all I wanted it for, email and schtufffff. I have Office on it, so in case D14 has homework she can do it there. Otherwise, there really isn't any other reason for me to have a laptop. I have decided school is off indefinitely, I just cannot handle it right now, and don't think I will be going back. So its all good...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
It is tough going back. And you have such a great job now, almost seems pointless.
I have never done a cruise. You are tempting me to look into doing one. Like next year, since I'm going to Hawaii in August for a wedding I think that covers vacation this year.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
LOL, I keep telling myself those things to and really am making myself believe and accept that I can be happy again with someone else (if and when the time comes). I'll survive. Heck, I am surviving.
I've been on two crusies...let me know what you want to know...if anything, be glad to help
Its funny when you look up all of a sudden one day, thinking I can't do this anymore, and realize you are doing it. You are surviving. It's nice to realize I actually have a life. I have a couple of dating websites, and have tentatively starting looking a little more, even "winking" at a few.
I think part of me will always be in love with the SG. And although I still vacillate, more and more I am beginning to think I don't want him after all. This has been happening pretty recently. It amazes me because I thought I would not get to that point. And I am not always. But still...I think this is one roller coaster that is starting to finally slow down.
I am excited about the cruise, but wish it wasn't so far away...its not until August. But that also gives me time to get a little bit of a tan so I don't burn to a crisp
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
LOL...once again I can very easily relate to your words. I have moments where I realize you know what...I am ok..there are days I'm even better than ok. I will survive and I am! This isn't the end of the world. He is one person in my life. I too am realizing more and more each day that I don't want to be with him anymore given the path of destruction he created and continues to create. Part of me always wondered if I was holding on for the right reason. Of course I love him, like you, I always will, but for me I think that too much damage has been done. I know for me....I can look at the marriage and know with 200% certainty there isn't anything more I could have tried or done for us or him. THAT gives me peace of mind. It also provides me peace of mind that friends, family, counselor, church support, are in agreeance with that. There isn't anything I can do for him. I've stuck by him through things that most women wouldn't. I liked the way you said it...the rollercoaster is starting to slow... This is how I feel as well. Want off this crazy train. I'm so worried about being alone when the truth of the matter is I've been alone in almost every sense anyway for nearly 2.5 years. Only this time I'm not being codependent, my thoughts, emotions, aren't dictated based solely on him. I'm taking control of my life and just want some peace and happiness.
