LOL...once again I can very easily relate to your words. I have moments where I realize you know what...I am ok..there are days I'm even better than ok. I will survive and I am! This isn't the end of the world. He is one person in my life. I too am realizing more and more each day that I don't want to be with him anymore given the path of destruction he created and continues to create. Part of me always wondered if I was holding on for the right reason. Of course I love him, like you, I always will, but for me I think that too much damage has been done. I know for me....I can look at the marriage and know with 200% certainty there isn't anything more I could have tried or done for us or him. THAT gives me peace of mind. It also provides me peace of mind that friends, family, counselor, church support, are in agreeance with that. There isn't anything I can do for him. I've stuck by him through things that most women wouldn't. I liked the way you said it...the rollercoaster is starting to slow... This is how I feel as well. Want off this crazy train. I'm so worried about being alone when the truth of the matter is I've been alone in almost every sense anyway for nearly 2.5 years. Only this time I'm not being codependent, my thoughts, emotions, aren't dictated based solely on him. I'm taking control of my life and just want some peace and happiness.
