Its funny when you look up all of a sudden one day, thinking I can't do this anymore, and realize you are doing it. You are surviving. It's nice to realize I actually have a life. I have a couple of dating websites, and have tentatively starting looking a little more, even "winking" at a few.
I think part of me will always be in love with the SG. And although I still vacillate, more and more I am beginning to think I don't want him after all. This has been happening pretty recently. It amazes me because I thought I would not get to that point. And I am not always. But still...I think this is one roller coaster that is starting to finally slow down.
I am excited about the cruise, but wish it wasn't so far away...its not until August. But that also gives me time to get a little bit of a tan so I don't burn to a crisp
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
