how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

ummmm...not really. i did some crying when he said he wanted to separate, but even during that initial conversation, i said, i can't make you stay, so if this is what you want...

my grandmother died on january 6. i assumed he would not want to come to the funeral, but he did, completely on his own accord. he said he wanted to be there to support me. he drove an hour to the airport here, flew into new orleans, and drove an hour to the funeral, only to turn around and go back less than 24 hours later. he was by my side the entire day of the funeral and even served as a pallbearer. we did not say one word about the R for about a week or so after this.

he asked me to lunch, i accepted and we talked about how we would divide things. since he moved out, i have only initiated contact once, otherwise, i wait to hear from him. i don't even know where he lives now, and i don't have a car anymore, so it's not like i could even take the drive by route if i wanted to.

i have done my best to give him space, be friendly but distant, and not throw myself on the floor in tears in his presence.

i have also made it clear that i had not lost faith in our M and that i wasn't ready to give up. but i would not say i have pursued him. with him, once he makes up his mind, there is nothing to do but sit back and wait, anyway.