Trying to move on

[Cie la vie]

I've already talked myself out of the letter.

I think this is a good call on your part. The letter would probably be perceived as pursuing in all likelihood. I have struggled with the idea of reaching out with heartfelt letters or conversation but feel it would be met with deaf ears/eyes at this point. However, prior to the bell tolling I will take my last shots as I will have nothing more to lose at that point.

She said W said we'd always be good enough friends to sit down at family functions like birthdays.

I feel the same as you when it comes to being friends. I'll will be friendly with the X but don't see being friends at least from my current vantage point. Maybe in time, but I look at any early post D attempts by my X to get together as cake eating.

If the D is what she wants and gets than she doesn't get any of me.