Thanks 25! I agree that I need to accept this reality of where he is, and chose to let go and detach every day. I am moving along toward that place, trying as much as I can. Funny thing, my uncle called randomly about an hr before mtg H -he'd be pressing me to go for L consult too- he's been so disgusted by H's behavior across this past yr and has been pressing me to move on towards D, that H was in no shape to be good H at this stage, etc. It was a little bit of a boost/reality check as I went in to meet w H and thinking of moving on..and then when H made a few snarky comments (like he used to) it definitely was a turn off..and in my head i heard: 'do I want this?'
So there are moments when I am turned off by him...but I think more and more I'm just ready to get out of this limbo state, off this roller coaster, and move on. I don't want to operate out of fear anymore.
