Doing hard time on the MLC chain gang.

[MHL]

Cat & TF,
Being friendly is easier and I know my W prefers it to the cold shoulder which I can do also, but that coldness that I can easily project can lead me to anger which is not good for me.

I too can look back and see that things are far different than they were 3 months ago. I wish that the separation/divorce agreement wasn't in the sitch, I would feel better about giving her the time she needs to work this out. Part of me wants to be her friend but not to the point where I will "friendly" divorce her and her life will go on with me in it as her friend if we get divorced.

I am finding that I walk a fine line between being friendly and being a friend with her. I have done so much for her as a friend and receive very little in return other than being with her from time to time. I do love her, and that ultimately drives what I do no matter what, it is that same love that reminds me to do so with no expectations. I am still committed to the time this will take but I am finding that I tend to re-examine things on a weekly basis and I need to make that time interval a little longer.