I see you made it to this board. Welcome. I assume that you have found the resources. There are links on "seeking answers" thread if you have not found them. I stand by what I said that I think your W is in MLC. not a WAS but that is not for me to decide.
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If she is so bent on leaving me then she must be hurting just as much if not more than me.
YES she is hurting much more than you. Be glad you are not in her shoes.
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Do they feel pain yet color a smile? Is this typical in them?
Again YES. There depression colors everything that they do. They are in tremendous pain. They may not show it to you but it is what is causing everything they do. It is powerful enough for them to convince themselves to destroy their marriages, their families, their lives. That is why you have to detach to stay away from the craziness. You can not let their pain destroy YOU!