Update Again Last night I cried till I puked. Sat in the bathroom feeling sorry for myself and begging God not to take her away from me that I could not stand being alone. It took everything in my power to keep from ending it all last night as I sat there feeling sorry for myself and in so much pain. No more.
Awoken, I want to thank you and I am sure others in this thread have said the same, but I am not going to look back through them as the things I have posted up till today have been the self pity. "She is already gone" Today things change. Starting with the phone call to our bank in 24 minutes. I want to thank each and every person that visits this site and takes the time to post and to pray for us new comers when we are weak. I know now that I will stumble, and it is going to be easy and that the tears will still come. But if I am ever going to save me, I have to let go of her. The lord may have plans for us to be together someday, he may have plans for something else.This I do not know. But I am now ready to find out what is in store for me. I do continue to ask for prayer, not to save my marriage, but to help me find the strength to be the man I should have been for the past 18 years.
M:40 W:40 D: 21 S: 18 D: 17 Md: 18 years -1/19/2010 W wants out -6/03/10 "Live for today, for tomorrow is promised to no-one.."
