Trying to move on

[ClingingToHope]

Great weekend with the girls. They had a sleepover Friday night, a birthday party with ice skating Saturday and then we went to a friend's house for the Super Bowl. He has four daughters and they wrote out, rehearsed and then performed a little play.

Also made it to church for first time in a couple of weeks. It's good because it refocuses me. I've been feeling so much anger.

The message yesterday was about how people want to go through life without help -- always saying "I got this." The message was to give your life up to God and let him help.

I was sitting there thinking I did that all the time with W. I always wanted to come to her rescue but I rarely let her help me.

So I got all fired up to write her a letter to tell her that I did need her all of these years and was grateful for all of the help she did give me. But now I'm not so sure. I doubt it will change the situation whatsoever but at least it won't leave something unsaid.

I've been avoiding her at all costs so this would be a bit of curveball.