You know this mlc'er hasn't given me a break for anything and set me up or led me on at every turn. Sure would be nice when she starts looking at herself.
So today thought I was suppose to pick up my son and his dog.
Turns out because I "tattletalled" to my attorney about her shoving me,of course she cursed me out on the phone,and justified her doing what she did."told you to leave my f'ing house 5 times." I think it was more than 5, and believe me I was trying to leave she turned on me so darn quick.She said she was going to listen to her atty,blah,blah,cause I said that's bs,then drop s and dog off here,she said she's tired of me trying to get her in trouble.Oh and she didn't like my time,"so I'm going to miss kick off." I ignored it, she flipping hates football!I think I delivered one shot back,wouldn't have had to tell atty if you hadn't traumatized the kids by doing it.I have to protect myself, because you see wife,I'm the sane one. I was focusing on something on the wall when I said it, just like when I'm helping a family with a car, so it was smooth and not a rushed comment.
In the past when I've had the need to put up the 10% it was rushed or quick, almost a panicy defense.
She is one heck of a mean,I mean mlc, she's smart too,can twist a story or event in the blink of an eye to make me feel worthless or my fault.And be happy doing it.She has got absolutely no remorse,she's acting happy for the most part,SHE's DB'ing me:).
We now have to exchange kids at the police station. For how long I don't know, but what the heck, I didn't know that, kids didn't know that and it's a big inconvenience.
Of course the teenage witch is tired of me trying to get her in trouble.I'm not by the way,trying to be nice and getting hammered everytime.
What the heck is that!!!!F'ing attorneys!!!Would have been nice if mine had called me,she knew I had son for the Superbowl.And wife said it was my atty that called her atty and told her.Who knows but that's a new low for son.I told him I'm sorry that happened.Hope we don't have to do it for long.I asked her if she knew how long, she popped off with something didn't hear it I was distracted.Of course mom had cursed me on the phone,his phone so he heard everything,I just looked at him,I know Dad, she didn't mean it like it sounded.
Anyway she looked happy as heck at the exchange, while my insides are still hurting or anxious.I wish I could quit being anxious around her!!!I am pretty much nails with everyone else, but she just intimidates the hell out of me. I know why,it's a similar feeling I had with abusive stepfather.AND he too would get his shots in.Need to get that calm,cool,collected and get off the divorce diet, need to gain some weight back.
Son and I watched superbowl,not sure if I like this add medicine,it's aderal makes me feel like i drank a lot of coffee,which then i feel the need to smoke more,makes me even more anxious,and i think it acts like caffenine,been depressed,or something,think about the past, then think about the future.
I know I tell myself, control what I can control, focus only on today.Somedays are better than others, that's all.
Think the weather has something to do with it. Snowing again,if its overcast or something,i'm more down.Sunny I'm up.
Oh well preaching to the choir on that.
I know for a fact she was going to file.
Even worse I know for a fact, I did too much reaching out and didn't listen to you guys.
Grace what I'm angry about is she intentionally or was ripe to do some of the things she did over our relationship, I was too, not angry like throw something against the wall angry,where with all this I've pretty much taken the beating and have not been angry at her or angry in this grieving process.
