Thank you Jstar for your support and reply. You are strong and generous in your responses on my thread. Our situations are similare as I too miscarried during between 4-5 months. I was expecting twins. It was a horrible time during my pregnancy and the stress of it all, plus the depression and anxiety, lack of sleep, loss of weight/appetite, loneliness and his treatment of me made me think I was going insane and could not cope. He first told me hd did not want me and did not love me. Then when we had to be together in the same house again, he suddenly decided we had to stay together. I felt awful, like a thing that could be picked up or dropped when he decided it suited him. I was on AD's and anti-anxiety stuff, it was so bad. Anyhow, I have decided to go back to what is rightfully my home and it doesn't matter what he wants or thinks. How are you now and how is your pregnancy progressing? Like you, I still care for him. Why, I don't know. I will return and I will dealwith anything he throws at me. Before I was quiet and did not want to provoke conflict but now I am angry and want to channel it into fighting for me.
If it's any comfort, my skin and hair have suffered a lot too!
