Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

At one point, WH said "when you go back to work, I will still keep S on my insurance so he is double covered."

Also "If you need, I can see if I can get home early from work so you can have a break"

Then"I can take him Tuesday night so you--" I interrupted and said "No!" He tried to explain that he wants to help take care of S because he sees how hard I am working and he wants me to get some sleep, too.
Gee, I have the perfect idea for how to arrange that!!
But I assured him that since I am at home and not working, I could handle being sleepy during the day. I also assured him that I know he would take really good care of him, but I just want to be near him. He said he understood.

Well then he leftas I was rocking S to sleep.
GUILT GUILT GUILT

Today I am tired of DBing!!!! I want to take a break! There is no end in sight! But like I said, this month,he will be here but I will be gone so I get a break from seeing him and from DBing.

In fact, I could even not cook dinner this week at all! WH would not think I was doing it on purpose.