Kat you are helping, as always... And when I dressed up I dressed up because I wanted to look good because I loved the idea if going to see an amzing artist at a wonderful theater BUT I think I wouldnt be disapointed if my GF for example didnt tell me I looked good...
Saffie, fused? Well, that's something I am only facing with him. I guess Schnarch's words that the more we invest emotionally, the more we tend to lean to our partner is true...
I need some time without worrying how the day will turn out, without worrying about my kids who had a major meltdown tonight (not a coincidence I am afraid), worrying about my dad's tests tomorrow, work, etc etc...
How do I get on with my life when we are supposed to be a couple? Do I exclude him from my plans? Do I live as separated, how will good memories will be created to override the bad ones?
Example:next weekend is a 3 day weekend for us. If we were divorced, I would go to my uncle's house. If I do that now, the kids and me and him wont spend any time together. Do I act as a single mother? If I do he will consider that as "an act of war"... He of course is working Monday so that rules out the possibility of going away and plus, I dont want him near my extended family.
Anyway, I have managed to calm myself down since I last posted. I will have that massage this week, no matter what... K
