here we go again

[Jstar]

haven't posted in a bit.

i allowed h to come over pull carpet from what cats ruined by me not being able to change cat box. he came over the next evening which is thenight before d2 soccer practice. d2 wanted him to go, but h went home and preferred to sleep, calls me 20 mins before it's start asking where it's at. i would nto tell him.

i was not going to have him show up get d2 all riled up then take off. off course he made promises to d2 and did not come through on them.

after practice we had to go to my students soccer game, run errands finding my medication which took till 5 pm.

i text h that he has shown no plan of next time to see d2 and that is very confusing to her, she does nto know one day to the next of when she will see him. of course me trying to explain this to h does not mean anything to him, he still just wants to do what he wants to do.

while he was over i said it was ok that he is the way he is, selfish all about him that however he may love d2 it is not healthy for her to have him be in her life just when it suits him.

i told him just to leave us alone. we are not his life, priority or anything.

i wake up this am just knowing my head is in the right place but heart has not caught up. if h wants to help around the house i will let him only when my d2 is not here.