Saffie, he already once told me she wasnt he one he feel inl ove with, it was all he felt through her...The new, the thrill, the no responsibilities... I get that. What bothers me is, he wont try different things with me to see what the result would be.
Yesterday he yelled at me because I "yelled" at my D. She kept moving her head and I couldnt make her hair for the show. I was stressed and I told her with a loud voice "stop moving your head". Things like that happen lot in my home. We are a loud family. Probably too loud for any of you guys. But my D wasnt hurt or anything and he came to yell at me to stop yelling at her... What pissed me off was that a day before that, he made a deal out of me saying one phrase to him and that phrase was "I dont need your yelling" while I was getting the kids ready for school and he was asleep. My D was refusing to go and I was sweet talking to her to get her ready. He made a big thing out of me saying that one phrase in front the kids which I did to let him know I didnt need him to take sides, I was managing...
I was about to send him a letter saying:
"Call her, tell her she was right, this love of ours is dead as she told you many times in the past, go make time for her in expense of your work and kids, be tender to her, call her sweet angel, make love to her 4-5 times a day, share your life and dreams with her and leave me alone to find someone to give me the exact same things... I give up. The last 3-4 months were the last proof I needed I did everything in my powers to fix this..."
