"Why do you feel the need to gain back her trust and friendship?"
This is a big one because if I don't feel that I could trust her and be friends to a certain degree, I couldn't trust her with my kids. Period. I wouldn't trust her to put their interests first before hers. I know it's up to her, but I need that peace of mind to a certain degree.
"Don't pursue someone who rejects you, they will only continue to reject you."
The thing is I don't go out of my way to pursue her. Only in times when we are actually in contact with one another, I'll be a bit playful but that's it. I believe you're correct in that her rejection of me stems from her inability to deal with issues. But that's not my problem.
Unlike many of the cakeeaters I've seen on here, she pokes her head out of her shell every now and then and seems "normal". It's those times that she has done so that I show her that it's okay to open up when and if she's willing.
Maybe I'm not describing it correctly. But it really does feel different when dealing with her depressing moods. Believe me, if she was like BigJohn's W, I would've kicked her ass out of the house and gotten the papers signed that day I found out about the OM.
The rejection I sense from her doesn't seem like it's someone who knows what she wants. It seems to come from fear. And not a cake eater's fear. A fear that comes from f'king up.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
