H came to do taxes Sat. morning. I made omelets for the whole gang except for myself. MLC diet is working well. lol H was in the den with S26 and DiL, he did their taxes too. After I cleaned up the kitchen I went to the other side of the house and that's where I stayed for most of the time H was here. H forgot a statement that he needed to complete ours. He didn't remember that S26 gave it to him previously. It came here instead of at his address. So he has to come over today to finish our taxes.
H didn't seem as uncomfortable being here as he has in the past. Of course maybe part of it was that there were other people in the house besides me. Before I knew about MLC I thought H was making excuses to come over and see me, so I used those times to try and talk to him about getting back together, and I ended up pushing him farther away. H told me that it was over and had been for a long time. Boy,I sure was ignorant 2 months in. Anyway, H has seemed like a caged animal at times when he's here, other times he's fallen asleep in his den chair. Go figure. Since I've detached he has seemed more at ease with me.
The thing that I found interesting is that when he was putting on his boots to leave I looked up to see him looking at me. When I did he turned his head away.
Expectations were at zero and I did well.
Grace- Thanks for your input. You're so right and I've fallen down a lot. Manage to keep getting back up and each time I seem stronger.
OP- Thank you for the resource threads. I've been busy reading them and with the knowledge gained my compassion and strength grows. Don't have a crystal ball to know how this is going to turn out but I do believe that either way I'll be better than OK.
Thank you all again for weighing in, you are blessings God has sent my way at a very needed time in my life.
