Coming up on One-Year of DB'ing...

[mindfull]

So, I didn't have to go w/H and boys tonight, even though he got me a ticket. A former friend of mine, whose H was doing something for the show, stopped to talk to me, and I ended up talking w/her. I feel worse (in a way) now.

She doesn't know I know, but I know what a f'd up W and Mother she's been. And, I know she has cheated on her H, and stays away from their home for days. Once that started happening is when I distanced myself. Her H was our contractor/turned friend. He told me, a few years back, in tears, etc...

Well, they've stayed together, and I'm not sure why, because this has gone on years... her staying out and away from home and the infidelity.

She was telling me about how annoying it is for her H to always want to ML to her.

I couldn't take it. I asked her to leave. Told her I didn't feel well. I couldn't shut the door quick enough, and was sobbing.

How could this woman whose H knows all about her indiscretions have a H that still wants her?

H is home now w/the boys, and notices my sad demeanor. Gives me a few questioning looks, etc... I'm trying to stay away. The boys are awake and rambunctious.

If the opportunity arises, I will say something.

I may not always have been as attentive as he wanted, but he has never, for a day, not had a wife that doesn't love him, or desire him. I have NEVER considered anyone else. I have NEVER been a party mom.