I know the pain you are going through. It was painful for me to watch H pack up his things and move out. I can't even begin to explain the emotions that I felt at that time. I am sure that you know.
It gets easier with time. I know that this is not a big comfort to you. But it does get better.
The best think you can do right now is let him go. This is the best thing to do for H and your marriage and most of all for you. This will give you the space that you need to work on you.
(((Lost)))
Me & H: 33 yrs S: 4 & 6 D: 2 M: 9 yrs ILYBNILWY: 8/09 SEPARATED: 9/09 The Beginning