Running out of time.

[ClingingToHope]

I'm starting to realize since my W moved out 1/26 that any contact whether via phone, text or email ends up putting me in a funk. Today is no exception. I also need to stop looking at her FB it doesn't help. The stuff I read there just makes me think she is enjoying being away from me. I don't need that on my mind.

I've been out nine months now and I don't mind emails -- although she comes over as terse -- or texts, but I really don't like talking to her on the telephone or seeing her.

School weeks aren't so bad. If the kids are healthy there's no reason I should see her. She's in the habit now of calling me when she needs something during work. I hate that. It puts me in a funk.

Luckily I'm not FB friends with W. Before Christmas I was in full snoop mode and was checking her page every day. Now, I'm in full forget her as much as possible mode.

In my case, she hasn't filed anything and D10 tells me the money troubles are piling up. A D won't help her. She'll end up owing me money. She's been pushing me to get the taxes done. In the past, I would have filed them by now because we'd use the money to pay off debt.

Now? Well. I'd like to get the money as well, but I'm in no real hurry. I may do them next weekend. It's likely our last together so I'm not sure what I'll feel like.