BBJ, I appreciate your sharing your journey. I know that it's likely that I'll be in your shoes in the not-too-distant future. It gives me solace to see that the painful milestones, like your H signing the papers, are balanced my courage and determination to get on with your life.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
Thanks Ms. I, and Flo...It is true I don't want a man who cannot love himself enough to help himself, but I STILL want this man to wake up and change his life...he just has to want it for himself...
Ugh!
Dear Dream Fairy...
If you insist on visiting me at night with vivid dreams of Dan and I, either let me stay asleep, or I am going to just stop sleeping, period...
Yep another night of kissing, making up, getting back together. Wtf???
Then I wake up and he spent the morning texting me a few times about his bull who tore his nose ring out entirely. He even referenced a bloody incident where our cat tore up a mouse in the kitchen to describe it...what fond memories?? Guess he was waiting on a vet before he came and got the kids. I just replied that he needed to give the kids a bath at his parents bc we still have no water heater...won't be here till monday.
Then the kids and I went out and made three snowmen, one for each of us. I will have to take some pics. More snow now, up to 5 inches again by Monday and we just got 4.5 inches on Friday!
Spent the day napping by the space heater after Dan's dad came and got the kids at noon. Lazy me! Then I went shopping. Got myself all new tupperware (wild child alert!!) and I boxed up all the mismatch crap to give to Dan. Organized my baking supplies. Who knows what crazy adventure I may try next??
If you insist on visiting me at night with vivid dreams of Dan and I, either let me stay asleep, or I am going to just stop sleeping, period...
Yep another night of kissing, making up, getting back together. Wtf???
Dear Dream Fairy,
I want to trade you in for BBJ's Dream Fairy. Her dreams sound really hot. All I get are dreams about hugging or talking to H. How lame is that?
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
Then I went shopping. Got myself all new tupperware (wild child alert!!)
BBJ - Ahhhhh! We are so easily amused! I just did this on Wednesday (bought new tupperware). Doesn't it just make your drawer look better? LoL I gave my D18 all of the rest.
I think this week we shall conquer the master bath drawers (EEK) How may waxing kits, self tanner and dead eyeliners are here???!?!?
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Well I am not sure waxing would be beneficial...haha just finished watching What a Woman Wants w/ Mel Gibson. Self tanners eh can leave an orangish hue. Eyeliner though...it is always good to accentuate the eyes...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
The dreams don't sound too bad BBJ, you just need to convince your dream fairy to replace the man in them!!!!! Much better than the kind where you end up crying hysterically in the middle of the night and can't stop.
I hope your day is fabulous and you stay very warm!!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Guess he was waiting on a vet before he came and got the kids. I just replied that he needed to give the kids a bath at his parents bc we still have no water heater...won't be here till monday.