I didnt/wont. Instead of a text, I was going to send an email...even had some funny dentist jokes in it that I thought would make her feel better.
But I wont send that either.
But I do realize that I am too dependent on her...mainly because when she left she took everything but D3 that pretty much held me together...my best friend, my confidant, my lover, my family...and without those I have become a mess.
I've read that its unhealthy to let someone have that much power over ones life and its certainly true here.
I can call family and talk...though really only my parents and given how far away they live it really worries/stresses them out when I call and am upset and theres nothing they can do...so I feel guilty calling them all the time.
I think the next book I'll read is the one on self-confidence/self esteem. Maybe if I can get that up a little I will be able to make some friends around here.
I think I said before though...I have so much trouble trusting people because I'm always afraid they'll hurt me...and what happened with my ex, after 7.5 years, doesnt help dispel that. It takes me a really long time to make a friend but when I do it's because I consider them to be golden.
DON'T YOU DARE!!!