Moving on with my life!

[antlers]

So yeah, detach, move on, GAL, and carry on. You are "getting" it and someday you will laugh at this...(well, at least parts of it)

J-

Let's hope I can look back at this and laugh. At least just give a head shake LOL

Last night my friend came over (the one who lost her son last summer). She looks fantastic. I was sort of expecting something a bit different, but she always looked good. She said she lives on the denial bus and hasn't really accepted her son's death until just recently. He died in July and she gave herself until January and then decided she needed to make herself move on. She also has 3 other grown kids as well as a son who is 8. We talked a bit about him and his name kept popping up in the conversations. I felt so bad. I cannot even imagine what she is going through.

Exh is due this morning for a visit. I am thinking about excusing myself to work on my school while he is here.

Greek has a signature line that says something along the lines of "be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle". It's true, and there are many people dealing with crap that's a lot worse than the things we're dealing with. Still, this IS hard stuff that we are going through.

[Startingover2]

Excellent idea. Use that time to your advantage! No playing family with him, let him visit with baby while you get something done for you! I don't remember you ever saying what you were studying.

I am taking an online medical transcription course. Its about 1000 hours and is quite intense for me. Learning medical words is like learning a whole new language! I enjoy it when I can sit and do it.

Greek has a signature line that says something along the lines of "be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle". It's true, and there are many people dealing with crap that's a lot worse than the things we're dealing with. Still, this IS hard stuff that we are going through.

I really like that! It does really put things in perspective doesn't it?

Ok..so at 8:04 exh sent a text saying he was going to his dads grave and will text after. I said ok.
At 8:45 he sent a pic/text of his dad's grave. Why? I didn't respond. I figured he was looking for sympathy. He can get that from someone else. Oh btw, his dad was very similar to exh. An addict that progressively got worse, cheated on his mother, abusive, etc until he died at 42 of a drug overdose.

Now its 9:34. He has 25 minutes left for his visitation. Have not heard a word from him.

Oh, now I just heard...Not going to make it down this morning. Maybe later.

I didn't respond.

Im speechless!

[bright_new_day]

I am taking an online medical transcription course. Its about 1000 hours and is quite intense for me. Learning medical words is like learning a whole new language! I enjoy it when I can sit and do it.

I used to do medical transcription, while I was going to school to become a teacher, babysiting an infant/toddler, and raising 4 kids.....and my X always said I was lazy and refused to work! LOL! The medical language is tough, but you'll get it down. I lucked into it. I had a friend who started to do it, then took over a medical groups contract and needed people to work for her. I did on the job training!

[bright_new_day]

Now its 9:34. He has 25 minutes left for his visitation. Have not heard a word from him.

Oh, now I just heard...Not going to make it down this morning. Maybe later.

I didn't respond.

Oh, and send him a message that says something like "Please let me know what time on ______________ (insert next scheduled visitation day) you will be coming."

[antlers]

One thing I've learned is to NEVER be surprised at what a WAS says, does, or thinks! Sure it's astounding, absurd, and completely out of touch with reality...but that's part of what they've become.

[Startingover2]

I am taking an online medical transcription course. Its about 1000 hours and is quite intense for me. Learning medical words is like learning a whole new language! I enjoy it when I can sit and do it.

I used to do medical transcription, while I was going to school to become a teacher, babysiting an infant/toddler, and raising 4 kids.....and my X always said I was lazy and refused to work! LOL! The medical language is tough, but you'll get it down. I lucked into it. I had a friend who started to do it, then took over a medical groups contract and needed people to work for her. I did on the job training!

I really do like it. Thats good you had on the job training. I am hoping I find a job from home. That is the whole idea behind this so baby wont have to go to childcare. As a SAHM for over 20 years I have NO skills. I am about 60% done with the course, but really need to step it up a bit to finish by summer.

[Startingover2]

One thing I've learned is to NEVER be surprised at what a WAS says, does, or thinks! Sure it's astounding, absurd, and completely out of touch with reality...but that's part of what they've become.

Very true! He has become a devoted father via text messages.

Now its 9:34. He has 25 minutes left for his visitation. Have not heard a word from him.

Oh, now I just heard...Not going to make it down this morning. Maybe later.

I didn't respond.

Oh, and send him a message that says something like "Please let me know what time on ______________ (insert next scheduled visitation day) you will be coming."

He is sinking. I can see it. Its the weekend and he is miserable. He will blame it on missing his dad or his kids. Time to pop some pills and get a case of beer. Times like this I am thankful he is MGF's problem now.

Its raining again today! Maybe I will get to some of the shows I recorded.

Why is my day so much better when he doesn't show up?

[bright_new_day]

From what I have heard there are quite a few online sites to find work. I will ask the friend I used to work for about it for you. The medical group we were transcribing ended up outsourcing their work so she lost the contract and had to look elsewhere for work. I am in the alt....friends with Gineen (Gabbysmom)if you are friends with her....look for Suzy in Washington DC.

[Startingover2]

I am not friends with Gabbysmom...hmmm I wonder how we can exchange FB names on here?

[antlers]

He has become a devoted father via text messages.

That one went all the way down to the bone! Ouch!