Just scared of what comes next!

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Kissak, I see similarities here with my own sitch, although I was lucky my bf seemed to whisk through the stages a bit faster than some. He too thought left me because of his issues, his depression and ow was just a symptom/desperate attempt to relieve how he felt. A moment of weakness not a good life decision.

I did get some answers/sorrys but there was so many things he didnt ever talk about with me (mainly ow) and although he would answer briefly, there was a time I really wanted to know more, to undersand and have him realise things and volunteer them. Now, like Cyrena, it no longer has the importance it once did and it fact I rarely think about all those things that have happened, because the present is what matters and, yes, is far more interesting!

I also agree that our seemigly perfect pre-bomb R wasnt as perfect as I thought and yet I may never had got to the better, more loving R we have now, had I not been shocked into it by him walking out.

My bf also struggled to 'give' much or be expressive when he was depressed and would be very silent almost, quiet, withdrawn after coming off prozac (only went on it after the bomb and S and presumably realising it wasnt me/the R afterall that was making him miserable!). He went back on a different AD, Citalopram at Christmas and has finally turned a corner. On ADs he is his old self, he's warm, loving, open and I no longer get that feeling of him being behind a wall.

I know it can only come from them, but I hope your H decides to get more help for his depression, it makes such a difference.