no idea what to do......

[gman]

to the other Gman - thank you, and i really mean it.

I must admit the post you read was written while in a very emotional state and looking back at it i can totally see the "woe is me" (hope i am not using too many "I" in this one...lol).

I have been trying to get my hands on a couple of the other reading suggestions but my local libray only carried a couple.

i have read DR and ultramind solution, i have located learned optimisim and will be trying to pick that one up today (think the N.U.T.S. book is one i should hunt out as well)

2x4! You've never felt pain...you were watching him ...in pain. Your son! You're the father! And all that occurs to you is that you've never felt such pain?

very true, this should not be about "me"...validting my childrens emotions and concerns is a new "goal" for me.

today is another day and i have been placed back on the raod ahead of me (with some help), now i just need to stay on that road and stop looking for a quicker way to get there - where ever "there" is.

thank you all again -