Doubts again, cant help it. Cant get rid of the tearing inside. I know I have done a ton of wrong things in the past. She was not angel either. Is this whole thing just a form of manipulation to try and keep her because the thought of being alone again terrifies me? I started into the book Codependent No More, and some of it does relate. But the words are lost on me. Going to do some praying now. Maybe god has taken his hands off me do to my lack of faith. Maybe there is no god.
One more day lord, one more day. Thank you all for listening. Monday is my first Dr. appt. I really need to find a support group in this area.
M:40 W:40 D: 21 S: 18 D: 17 Md: 18 years -1/19/2010 W wants out -6/03/10 "Live for today, for tomorrow is promised to no-one.."
