Allen thank you so much for you REALNESS and understanding of what I'm going through and how I need to see things through my husbands eyes. I've actually gone back and have read your response several times and it makes perfect sense.
It's obvious I'm still growing and maturing as a person and as a woman. After my husband called to decline on Monday I wasn't quite sure how I was gonna handle it as the week progressed. I'm happy to say I honestly feel fine and although I wish we could spend the weekend together, I'm okay with his decision. The old me would've continued to call, make threats, loose sleep, call all my girlfriends, and family to get their opinion. After this I guess something changed within me and I'm finally prepared to step back and give him space, time, and comply with the divorce proceeding currently underway.
I guess I'm tired..... or maybe just realize I can't control everything and by me trying and pushing nothing positive has come about. I've gone to the gym all week, will be working overtime all next week, and will continue to hang out with friends from time to time.
I was bitter about his decision at first but as I said earlier I'm okay and am prepared for whatever happens.
Again thanks so much Allen and everyone else whose taken the time to reply.
