Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

My problem hasn't been so much my inability to stop thinking about what she is doing with OM so much as what her thoughts are about us/me and our marriage. In my hopeful mind I want to believe she is seconding guessing her decision and is miserable as well. I end up punishing myself mentally by assuming she is as happy as she has ever been, glad to be away from me and looking forward to the conclusion of the D. These are the thoughts that I would like to perish.

For whatever reason I have avoided the whole W with other guy visual thus far, maybe that is coming home to roost soon.

No pain no gain applys here I guess.

Brief update. The kids were with my last night and off to to the W apartment later today. Both the little ones are sick with cold and chest cough. I hate to see them sick but they are troopers. I gave them a small dose of Robitussin around 7:00 PM and they were running for bed twenty minutes later.

It was tough to head off to work this morning knowing I won't see them until Monday night. That coupled with my plans for the weekend getting rained out will make this weekend feel much longer. Under normal conditions a longer feeling weekend would be welcome. Funny how these sitchs can cause 180's in more ways than one.

My W has taken a lot longer to respond to a date and time for mediation session 3 and it is in instances such as this that I start to speculate on what she is thinking. Not good must stop.

Who do you like in the Big Dance?