I wish that feeling of peace would last. Today I have an uneasy feeling and I'm not sure why. I have been having thoughts of contacting my H to ask about proceeding with the D but I'm still not quite there yet. Now I'm thinking of contacting our C to see what guidance he can give since I think he has been seeing my H. I know I need to keep living my life like he isn't coming back...the difficulty is leaving that door open even just a little.
One of things that my H said the last time I saw him keeps running through my head. He said he could file for the D and hope that he figures this out in time. I just shrugged my shoulders and didn't respond. This seems to be the way that my thinks anymore where he may go with something even though he isn't committed to it hoping he will figure it out before the deadline comes. The problem has been that he continues avoiding figuring it out. I remember a long time ago our C talked to us about people changing when there is something that motivates them to change. Seems pretty obvious I guess...Today I am wondering if my H has any motivation to change now that I am no longer a distraction to his issues. Doesn't matter I guess...I need to let it go.
Peace-I like your journal idea. I find writing very theapeutic...a lot of the reason why I come here. Maybe writing to God could give me a new perspective.
