What I was saying was that while I know the only way to get her back may be to let her go, I (would like to) think I would not be so passive and chicken about it if I was not so concerned about putting the kids through the strain of a separation/divorce. I meant what I told her that if we divorce I will hate it, but then I will move on and be fine. It is knowing that the kids will be forever changed that kills me.
Me 36 W 40 S 13, 9, 7 ILYBNILWY 2-08 Discovered EA 3-08 Reconciled 7-08 She says she's been faking it 11-09 She wants to separate 12-09